Even if it means that I'm up late to write, then I'm makin the time. If it means me finalizing and prioritizing in the wee hours of the nite, then I'm makin time. If means sitting in the car as my kids sleep in the back to write down an idea, then I'm makin the time. If it means stopping for a quick minute to look up something and I do it, then I'm makin the time? If it makes their future a lil bit better then I made the time.
Tuesday
Monday
I Can't Do It
The title alone sounds like or reminds me of the little train that could do it. I am actually that train that could. We often procrastinate or make excuses to not do something and today I'm making excuses to actually do something. From this day forward I will do all that I can to make my life and my family's life better. I think I've procrastinated for far too long. Well actually I've just been taking baby steps. It is now time to take adult steps. I've realized I've been successful before and there wasn't anything wrong with it. So why not continue to be successful? So on that note, I can do it and I shall do it.
Sunday
New Direction
After a week of feeling inspired, I've decided that I'm headed in a new direction. The new direction will eventually lead me to my original destination. The original destination involved writing and more writing but now this destination has a cupcake business included in there (sorta speak).
As for my writing, I have some things mapped out. I believe some things are already written but just need to be organized. Now that I have a set schedule to stick by I think it will all work out. I'm excited about this new route and I'm happy to have finally been able to stay motivated and focused.
Now for my cupcake business, I have a plan and I'm just gonna stick to it...bottom line.
They say God puts things in your way for a reason. I'm glad he put the many things in my way for a reason. Why? Because they have taught me tolerance, focus, determination.
Everything is gonna be a ok.
As for my writing, I have some things mapped out. I believe some things are already written but just need to be organized. Now that I have a set schedule to stick by I think it will all work out. I'm excited about this new route and I'm happy to have finally been able to stay motivated and focused.
Now for my cupcake business, I have a plan and I'm just gonna stick to it...bottom line.
They say God puts things in your way for a reason. I'm glad he put the many things in my way for a reason. Why? Because they have taught me tolerance, focus, determination.
Everything is gonna be a ok.
Friday
A Lesson From Oprah's Life Class
I know this may sound crazy but whatever....I tune into Oprah's OWN network when she has her Life Class on. I've had a few "aha' moments while taking this class. Last night, I had one hell of an "aha" moment but I found what was being taught to be very much true. I've often discussed my views on friendships and last night's class actually made me feel that my feelings are valid and there are people out there who also share my same view. What I want to share here are some quotes from Iyanla Vanzant. I think that we all can relate to these quotes whether we've been the gossiper, gossipee or the listener.
10 Takeaways from "Terrible Things Women Do To Each Other" They're words of wisdom that could help strengthen, heal and grow the important female relationships in your life.
1. "The way to achieve your own success is to be willing to help somebody else get it."
2. "When you gossip, you hex yourself. Because I guarantee you if you do it, its coming back on you." AHA..so true I see it when people gossip about other people and then they get attitudes when they hear people talking about them..
3. "Comparison is an act of violence against self." AHA.. when we see photos of women with "banging" bodies and we think why can't we have a body like them?
4. "The privilege of a lifetime is being who you are."
5. "Begin within. If it shows up in your life, it's coming to tell you something about you that you're acting like you don't know. Something about yourself, or your relationship with God."
6. "People come into our life for a reason, a season or a lifetime."
7. "Trust yourself enough to know who you can trust."
8. " Men think in headlines; women think in print."
9. "If it's not your story to tell, you don't tell it." AFREAKINMEN!
10. "Gossip is when you have a malice intent or mindless, third-party conversation to someone about someone, something you haven't said to that someone."
10 Takeaways from "Terrible Things Women Do To Each Other" They're words of wisdom that could help strengthen, heal and grow the important female relationships in your life.
1. "The way to achieve your own success is to be willing to help somebody else get it."
2. "When you gossip, you hex yourself. Because I guarantee you if you do it, its coming back on you." AHA..so true I see it when people gossip about other people and then they get attitudes when they hear people talking about them..
3. "Comparison is an act of violence against self." AHA.. when we see photos of women with "banging" bodies and we think why can't we have a body like them?
4. "The privilege of a lifetime is being who you are."
5. "Begin within. If it shows up in your life, it's coming to tell you something about you that you're acting like you don't know. Something about yourself, or your relationship with God."
6. "People come into our life for a reason, a season or a lifetime."
7. "Trust yourself enough to know who you can trust."
8. " Men think in headlines; women think in print."
9. "If it's not your story to tell, you don't tell it." AFREAKINMEN!
10. "Gossip is when you have a malice intent or mindless, third-party conversation to someone about someone, something you haven't said to that someone."
Thursday
Sometimes
Sometimes you can make me feel so good
and at times you make me feel bad.
Inside you make me so soft and at the same
time you make me so hard.
I always ask myself, why do I even stay?
Do I stay because of the sex?
Don’t get me wrong because it is strong.
But I know there has to be another reason.
That reason just doesn’t come to mind.
There are times when I think that this can be real
but that is just something that I feel.
Sometimes you can make me feel so good
and at times you make me feel bad.
Inside you make me so soft and at the same
time you make me so hard.
I ask myself, why do I even stay?
Do I stay because of love?
The love I stay for is my own since I love
all the time and you love only, some of the time.
Sometimes you make me feel so good
and at times you make me feel bad.
Inside you make me so soft and at the same
time you make me so hard.
I always ask myself, why do I even stay?
Do I stay because of the pain?
Not only does it leave me stranded out in the rain
but it leaves my body so drained.
I think that all of this can change but it
all remains the same.
Come to find it’s all just a game.
Sometimes you make me feel so good
and at times you make me feel bad.
Inside you make me so soft and at the same
time you make me so hard.
There are times when I think that this can be real
but that is just something that I feel.
and at times you make me feel bad.
Inside you make me so soft and at the same
time you make me so hard.
I always ask myself, why do I even stay?
Do I stay because of the sex?
Don’t get me wrong because it is strong.
But I know there has to be another reason.
That reason just doesn’t come to mind.
There are times when I think that this can be real
but that is just something that I feel.
Sometimes you can make me feel so good
and at times you make me feel bad.
Inside you make me so soft and at the same
time you make me so hard.
I ask myself, why do I even stay?
Do I stay because of love?
The love I stay for is my own since I love
all the time and you love only, some of the time.
Sometimes you make me feel so good
and at times you make me feel bad.
Inside you make me so soft and at the same
time you make me so hard.
I always ask myself, why do I even stay?
Do I stay because of the pain?
Not only does it leave me stranded out in the rain
but it leaves my body so drained.
I think that all of this can change but it
all remains the same.
Come to find it’s all just a game.
Sometimes you make me feel so good
and at times you make me feel bad.
Inside you make me so soft and at the same
time you make me so hard.
There are times when I think that this can be real
but that is just something that I feel.
Wednesday
Believe
Just when you’ve lost all hope,
all you gotta do is believe.
Let out a scream,
then start to believe in yourself
and all your dreams.
As long as you believe, there’s always
a friend who returns the call
no matter when & how you fall.
As long as you believe,
all dreams & goals can be achieved.
All you got to do is just
BELIEVE.
all you gotta do is believe.
Let out a scream,
then start to believe in yourself
and all your dreams.
As long as you believe, there’s always
a friend who returns the call
no matter when & how you fall.
As long as you believe,
all dreams & goals can be achieved.
All you got to do is just
BELIEVE.
Tuesday
Claim To Fame
Ali is truly the greatest,
he stood up for what he believed and
for what he felt.
It took him awhile to get back on top.
That day finally came
and he reclaimed his fame.
My heart is the greatest,
it gives me life & allows me to love.
It took me a while to understand it,
appreciate it, protect it and love it.
The day has finally come
and now I truly accept it.
For my heart,
it makes me who I AM!!
It is also my claim to fame
he stood up for what he believed and
for what he felt.
It took him awhile to get back on top.
That day finally came
and he reclaimed his fame.
My heart is the greatest,
it gives me life & allows me to love.
It took me a while to understand it,
appreciate it, protect it and love it.
The day has finally come
and now I truly accept it.
For my heart,
it makes me who I AM!!
It is also my claim to fame
Monday
Today
Today is the start of a new week. I will accomplish a lot this week. I will not put anything off. I must schedule and plan accordingly.
Today is the start of a new week. I will not put anything off. I must schedule and plan accordingly. I will accomplish a lot this week.
Today is the start of a new week. I must schedule and plan accordingly. I will accomplish a lot this week. I will not put anything off.
Today is the start of a new week.
Today is the start of a new week. I will not put anything off. I must schedule and plan accordingly. I will accomplish a lot this week.
Today is the start of a new week. I must schedule and plan accordingly. I will accomplish a lot this week. I will not put anything off.
Today is the start of a new week.
Sunday
Hypocrite
People don't see you so they can't talk about you. Then they want to make up things and say that people are talking and when you ask what people all they can say it's people. Yeah okay it's you that's doing all the talking and you wanna make it look like it's other people....As per Ochocinco....CHIL' PLEASE!
You don't want people to know your business yet you can go and speak someone else's business? What sense does that make?
You want to be in the "know" so you take past experiences and/or arguments and make them the "now"...I think not! Since you don't know you just have to make up something just to be relevant...
Again, you don't want people to know your business yet you can go and speak someone elses business? What sense does that make?
You don't want people to know your business yet you can go and speak someone else's business? What sense does that make?
You want to be in the "know" so you take past experiences and/or arguments and make them the "now"...I think not! Since you don't know you just have to make up something just to be relevant...
Again, you don't want people to know your business yet you can go and speak someone elses business? What sense does that make?
Saturday
I Love You But Could Careless
To care for someone can mean to adore them, feed them, tend their wounds. But care can also signify sorrow, as in 'bowed down by cares.' Or anxiety, as in, 'Careful!' Or investment in an outcome, as in 'Who cares?' The word love has no such range of meaning: It's pure acceptance." ~ Martha Beck
Here I go again with my findings in the O Newsletter. I find myself reading a lot of Martha Beck's articles. This one in particular is titled, How To Love By Caring Less. In this article she basically says that you can love someone but not care. You can love someone unconditionally and not care what happens to them. It sounds strange but it's true. It's called detaching attachment. She says the way to go about this is to:
1. Choose a person you love but feel some level of anxiety, anger or sadness;
2. Identify what this person must change to make you happy ( If loved one) would only (want this person to change), then I could feel ( how you would feel if the change occurred);
3. Accept a Radical Reality(scratch the first clause of the sentence...I could feel (how you would feel) Last sentence is the truth, accept that it is possible; and
4. Shift your focus from controlling your loved one's behavior to creating your own happiness.
After reading this article I actually felt relieved only because this is how I feel towards certain people in my life. In the beginning it was hard to accept how these people in my life were and it truly bothered me. Then I had my first son and after having him I began to re-evaluate my life and my feelings towards other people. I realized that my happiness was more important than anything and if I wanted to be the best parent that I could be then, that meant I had to be happy and positive. "Sanity begins the moment you admit you're powerless over other people." That's when I said to my self that people aren't going to change and I would have to accept it and move on. If they were negative factors in my life then I could either distance myself from them speaking to them on occasion or just love them and let go. And so far it's working. Like I said before after reading this article I felt relieved because I thought I was wrong for feeling the way that I do but now I feel much better.
Here I go again with my findings in the O Newsletter. I find myself reading a lot of Martha Beck's articles. This one in particular is titled, How To Love By Caring Less. In this article she basically says that you can love someone but not care. You can love someone unconditionally and not care what happens to them. It sounds strange but it's true. It's called detaching attachment. She says the way to go about this is to:
1. Choose a person you love but feel some level of anxiety, anger or sadness;
2. Identify what this person must change to make you happy ( If loved one) would only (want this person to change), then I could feel ( how you would feel if the change occurred);
3. Accept a Radical Reality(scratch the first clause of the sentence...I could feel (how you would feel) Last sentence is the truth, accept that it is possible; and
4. Shift your focus from controlling your loved one's behavior to creating your own happiness.
After reading this article I actually felt relieved only because this is how I feel towards certain people in my life. In the beginning it was hard to accept how these people in my life were and it truly bothered me. Then I had my first son and after having him I began to re-evaluate my life and my feelings towards other people. I realized that my happiness was more important than anything and if I wanted to be the best parent that I could be then, that meant I had to be happy and positive. "Sanity begins the moment you admit you're powerless over other people." That's when I said to my self that people aren't going to change and I would have to accept it and move on. If they were negative factors in my life then I could either distance myself from them speaking to them on occasion or just love them and let go. And so far it's working. Like I said before after reading this article I felt relieved because I thought I was wrong for feeling the way that I do but now I feel much better.
Friday
Mind Boggling Question
Time after time
Place after place
Love after love……still nothing
Open my heart?
Keep my heart closed?
Be hurt or hurt?
Mind boggling questions
Perfect time, fucked up timing
Is that nothing becoming something?
……No its just for the moment
my heart closed…
No mind boggling question
Just a quick simple answer.
Now you come along,
what do I expect?
What should I expect?
More mind boggling questions
You say you want to love me?
Do you know how many
times I’ve heard that before?!
BE ABOUT IT!!
Why am I like that?
Now that’s a GOOD QUESTION!!!
After all the hurt and pain
my heart has closed.
So many lies, followed by nothing.
One tends to give up.
You say that you are real?!
Once again…..
BE ABOUT IT!!
Once you’re ‘bout it ‘bout it
maybe then my heart will open.
How long does that take?
Another MIND BOGGLING QUESTION
Place after place
Love after love……still nothing
Open my heart?
Keep my heart closed?
Be hurt or hurt?
Mind boggling questions
Perfect time, fucked up timing
Is that nothing becoming something?
……No its just for the moment
my heart closed…
No mind boggling question
Just a quick simple answer.
Now you come along,
what do I expect?
What should I expect?
More mind boggling questions
You say you want to love me?
Do you know how many
times I’ve heard that before?!
BE ABOUT IT!!
Why am I like that?
Now that’s a GOOD QUESTION!!!
After all the hurt and pain
my heart has closed.
So many lies, followed by nothing.
One tends to give up.
You say that you are real?!
Once again…..
BE ABOUT IT!!
Once you’re ‘bout it ‘bout it
maybe then my heart will open.
How long does that take?
Another MIND BOGGLING QUESTION
Thursday
Random Writers Thought
Well here I am at the computer trying to decide if I should work on a few chapters or edit a script I've been working on. I think I'll most likely work on a few chapters now and if I'm still up later edit the script. I'm looking forward to bringing these chapters together for my next book. The last 10mths of my life have been very interesting and to combine them in a book....I look so forward to reading the end result.
I guess I need to get a move on it because time is of the essence when it comes to perfection or is it?
I guess I need to get a move on it because time is of the essence when it comes to perfection or is it?
Wednesday
Some Type of Writer's Block
I feel motivated to write but I can't. It's not that I have nothing to write about, I just can't start. I'm waiting for something to happen that's gonna make me either start typing or pick up my journal and start writing. Either way the story that I have to tell is going to get out one way or another.
Maybe I can start a chapter and go from there and come back to the beginning when whatever it is that I'm waiting for to happen happens.
You know what? I'm just going to start with a chapter and wait for the "happening" or maybe I'll outline.....Who knows? I'll figure it out.
Maybe I can start a chapter and go from there and come back to the beginning when whatever it is that I'm waiting for to happen happens.
You know what? I'm just going to start with a chapter and wait for the "happening" or maybe I'll outline.....Who knows? I'll figure it out.
Tuesday
With or Against Me
When you are in the process of success or something great, people are either with you or against you.
Those with you will continuously ask you if you need anything or help until the very end.
Those against you don't come around until the process of something great or your success until you have finished putting the final touches on everything. These are the people who just want to be around to reap the benefits.
When your benefits are up and done the people against you go back to being against you until the next big thing. These people don't know what you're up to and claim that you're up to nothing. But you know, you have to be grateful for those who are constantly with you because these are the people who encourage you to go on.
So which one are you?
Those with you will continuously ask you if you need anything or help until the very end.
Those against you don't come around until the process of something great or your success until you have finished putting the final touches on everything. These are the people who just want to be around to reap the benefits.
When your benefits are up and done the people against you go back to being against you until the next big thing. These people don't know what you're up to and claim that you're up to nothing. But you know, you have to be grateful for those who are constantly with you because these are the people who encourage you to go on.
So which one are you?
Monday
Couples Alone Time
Many of us in relationships find it hard at times to do things with our partners. Most of the time if you have kids, taking them to the park or maybe to an appointment together or even taking them on a fun-filled vacation can be an adventure. Then of course there's date night when you two can have your alone time. For me, it's not that often that my partner and I get to spend alone time or even time together. We have Scrabble night but of course the kids are playing with their toys or even recording us with their Leap Pads. Then there are family events that we go to where we can enjoy ourselves and really not have to worry about the kids but we're technically not alone.
Since my partner has been on vacation Thursday we have been doing some interesting things together. After waiting for our five year old at the bus-stop, then picking up our three year old from daycare we as a family went grocery shopping. Before the summer it was just me, during the summer, me and the boys. Now since school has started I've been able to go my normal day because my partner is home on vacation. Going grocery shopping with three males is an adventure but kinda nice because I don't have to push the cart and keep saying 'no'. When we got home I was able to put the groceries away in peace since they all went for haircuts. Believe it or not I enjoyed that time together as a family. It was a busy day but worth it since I had my three men there.
Friday after dropping off the youngest at daycare, my partner and I headed to the gym. Normally he goes early in the morning before work and I go after I drop the youngest off. This session he went his way and I did the same.
Over the weekend we took a rode trip. We learned three things on this trip. The first thing, it takes longer than four hours to get out of New York. Two, we can spend a long amount of time in car and not want to kill each other. And the last thing that we learned, when our kids get to the college age, if they want to go to a school in Upstate New York, we wouldn't mind taking the drive. Believe it or not that drive was the longest amount of time that we spent together since our boys have been born.
Now today, we did the same thing that we did on Friday but this time I had him training me. So today when we got to the gym, we had me doing squats the whole time. We may have gotten to the gym around 9:30ish and at about 10:15-10:20, I did some leg curls and calf raises. We had to be out of there in time to get our five year old off the bus at 11:00. When we left the gym, my legs were wobbly, well actually at some point during the work-out my legs were wobbly. Now when I go to the gym I do a variation of squats along with some deadlifts, elliptical machine and treadmill. I also discovered that I had been doing my squats WRONG!!!!!
My legs are still wobbly and I feel good and I can't wait for tomorrow's work-out so we can have our 'Couples Time Alone'.
Since my partner has been on vacation Thursday we have been doing some interesting things together. After waiting for our five year old at the bus-stop, then picking up our three year old from daycare we as a family went grocery shopping. Before the summer it was just me, during the summer, me and the boys. Now since school has started I've been able to go my normal day because my partner is home on vacation. Going grocery shopping with three males is an adventure but kinda nice because I don't have to push the cart and keep saying 'no'. When we got home I was able to put the groceries away in peace since they all went for haircuts. Believe it or not I enjoyed that time together as a family. It was a busy day but worth it since I had my three men there.
Friday after dropping off the youngest at daycare, my partner and I headed to the gym. Normally he goes early in the morning before work and I go after I drop the youngest off. This session he went his way and I did the same.
Over the weekend we took a rode trip. We learned three things on this trip. The first thing, it takes longer than four hours to get out of New York. Two, we can spend a long amount of time in car and not want to kill each other. And the last thing that we learned, when our kids get to the college age, if they want to go to a school in Upstate New York, we wouldn't mind taking the drive. Believe it or not that drive was the longest amount of time that we spent together since our boys have been born.
Now today, we did the same thing that we did on Friday but this time I had him training me. So today when we got to the gym, we had me doing squats the whole time. We may have gotten to the gym around 9:30ish and at about 10:15-10:20, I did some leg curls and calf raises. We had to be out of there in time to get our five year old off the bus at 11:00. When we left the gym, my legs were wobbly, well actually at some point during the work-out my legs were wobbly. Now when I go to the gym I do a variation of squats along with some deadlifts, elliptical machine and treadmill. I also discovered that I had been doing my squats WRONG!!!!!
My legs are still wobbly and I feel good and I can't wait for tomorrow's work-out so we can have our 'Couples Time Alone'.
Sunday
Situations
Situations do arise,
But when they come,
why do we act surprised?
Situations do pass,
And when they do,
Why do they leave us wonderin?
Situations do happen,
Why is that,
They leave us feeling stuck?
We can always make the best
Out of a bad situation
But can we make a good situation
Better than it truly already is?
Is it a good idea,
To make the worse out of a good situation?
Situations will always
Just be situations.
But when they come,
why do we act surprised?
Situations do pass,
And when they do,
Why do they leave us wonderin?
Situations do happen,
Why is that,
They leave us feeling stuck?
We can always make the best
Out of a bad situation
But can we make a good situation
Better than it truly already is?
Is it a good idea,
To make the worse out of a good situation?
Situations will always
Just be situations.
Saturday
My Mind Is Made Up
I’m startin to feel like everything is
Just a game,
Some things change and some remain.
It’s like a constant struggle just to go on.
I struggle to do this,
I struggle to do that.
But you know what?
My mind is made up
I’m going to play this game
And everything won’t be the same.
Why should I have to struggle?
I’m takin my life back.
No more attacks.
Right about now,
My mind is made up
No more worrying about you,
Today, tomorrow or yesterday.
It’s all about me,
future, past and present.
So look out world
because,
My mind is made up.
Just a game,
Some things change and some remain.
It’s like a constant struggle just to go on.
I struggle to do this,
I struggle to do that.
But you know what?
My mind is made up
I’m going to play this game
And everything won’t be the same.
Why should I have to struggle?
I’m takin my life back.
No more attacks.
Right about now,
My mind is made up
No more worrying about you,
Today, tomorrow or yesterday.
It’s all about me,
future, past and present.
So look out world
because,
My mind is made up.
Friday
Why We Do The Things We Do
When it comes to love, do you ever wonder why people do the things that they do? Ever wonder why people fall in love? Ever wonder what makes people fall out of love? Ever wonder why couples tend to cheat on each other? Ever wonder why?
There are so many, what, ever wonder, and why questions when it comes to relationships. The twisted thing about it is that many of these questions go unanswered for a long period of time. But, then on the other hand, some people can answer all the questions without thinking twice. But are their answers the right answers? Maybe the answers are right for them; however, they may not be right for others. The things that we do are just so unexplainable, or are they? We tend to do things just because. We never know why we are doing what we are doing; it just seems to be an action or a response. We see things that we want and we go after them and once we have them its like, damn… I went through all of that and this is what I got!? We often have to step all over people; we often hurt others in the process without even realizing what we did or are doing. It’s like we see what we want, and it’s wrapped up in a pretty wrapping; and, in order to find out what’s inside, we unwrap it by any means necessary. This is when we begin to act like a fool, and all the foolish and devilish things start to kick in. We turn into the devil and act a way that we never acted before. After it’s all said and done, we ask ourselves “why?” All we can come up with is “I don’t know.” Why don’t we know, or do we? A majority of the time we don’t know the real reason behind our intentions and we answer the question just by saying “because.” Because what? There’s no what; there’s only because.
I can only speak for myself and not for others, but I do things just to do it, not intentionally but unintentionally. It’s never intended to hurt anyone but some of the things I do, do hurt others. Am I sorry? Depends. Family, yes. Friends, maybe. Others, well if they are in the way, perhaps. There are and have been times when I did something and just didn’t give a fuck and could care less about who got/gets hurt in the process.
There is a reason to why we do things that we do. We just have to look deep within ourselves to find the answer. If other people knew why we did what we did, we would be predictable and no one wants to be predictable. If we were predictable then everyone would know everybody’s next move. I know for a fact that I wouldn’t want anyone to know my next move. Each individual knows why he or she does what he or she does; no one else knows the answer.
So why do you do the things you do?
There are so many, what, ever wonder, and why questions when it comes to relationships. The twisted thing about it is that many of these questions go unanswered for a long period of time. But, then on the other hand, some people can answer all the questions without thinking twice. But are their answers the right answers? Maybe the answers are right for them; however, they may not be right for others. The things that we do are just so unexplainable, or are they? We tend to do things just because. We never know why we are doing what we are doing; it just seems to be an action or a response. We see things that we want and we go after them and once we have them its like, damn… I went through all of that and this is what I got!? We often have to step all over people; we often hurt others in the process without even realizing what we did or are doing. It’s like we see what we want, and it’s wrapped up in a pretty wrapping; and, in order to find out what’s inside, we unwrap it by any means necessary. This is when we begin to act like a fool, and all the foolish and devilish things start to kick in. We turn into the devil and act a way that we never acted before. After it’s all said and done, we ask ourselves “why?” All we can come up with is “I don’t know.” Why don’t we know, or do we? A majority of the time we don’t know the real reason behind our intentions and we answer the question just by saying “because.” Because what? There’s no what; there’s only because.
I can only speak for myself and not for others, but I do things just to do it, not intentionally but unintentionally. It’s never intended to hurt anyone but some of the things I do, do hurt others. Am I sorry? Depends. Family, yes. Friends, maybe. Others, well if they are in the way, perhaps. There are and have been times when I did something and just didn’t give a fuck and could care less about who got/gets hurt in the process.
There is a reason to why we do things that we do. We just have to look deep within ourselves to find the answer. If other people knew why we did what we did, we would be predictable and no one wants to be predictable. If we were predictable then everyone would know everybody’s next move. I know for a fact that I wouldn’t want anyone to know my next move. Each individual knows why he or she does what he or she does; no one else knows the answer.
So why do you do the things you do?
Thursday
A Lesson
Who remembers,
what yesterday has taught us?
Who knows,
what today will teach us?
Who hopes,
for what tomorrow will bring us?
Seasons change,
and our lives we can arrange.
Believe in yourself,
for it is self who can make
the difference.
Gradually you’ll see a better
appearance.
All it takes is hope, faith & belief.
Soon you’ll say what a relief
Remember what yesterday
has taught you.
Remember today’s lesson.
And be sure to greet tomorrow with
open arms.
For, seasons may change
and our lives we can always
RE-ARRANGE
what yesterday has taught us?
Who knows,
what today will teach us?
Who hopes,
for what tomorrow will bring us?
Seasons change,
and our lives we can arrange.
Believe in yourself,
for it is self who can make
the difference.
Gradually you’ll see a better
appearance.
All it takes is hope, faith & belief.
Soon you’ll say what a relief
Remember what yesterday
has taught you.
Remember today’s lesson.
And be sure to greet tomorrow with
open arms.
For, seasons may change
and our lives we can always
RE-ARRANGE
Wednesday
Mother Duties
Well this last week has been very interesting for me. First, my 3 year old started going to daycare alone. Before September him and his brother were going to the same place and he always had his brother in a room across from him. I thought that there was going to be a little problem but he proved me wrong.
Now as for my 5 year old, well he had his front teeth pulled. He was a trooper in the chair but once he started coming back to normal he was a little crazy. He had his teeth pulled the day before school started and we thought he wouldn't be ready but he was. His first day of Kindergarten and he was ready. Instead of putting him on the bus I drove him the first two days. He loved it. Before he started school I asked him did he want me to drive him or take the bus or did he want me to drive him a few days and he could take the bus the other days. Of course he said he wanted me to drive him all the days. This past Sunday I asked him would he like to take the bus and he surprised me by saying yes. Monday morning we got up went through our morning routine and we headed to the bus stop.
When we were walking to the bus stop he was so focused that he didn't notice that his dad drove by. Every bus that passed by he thought they forgot him. I let him know that it wasn't his bus. Now my son is the type to say he wants to do something and when the time comes he changes his mind. Not on Monday. The bus came down the hill and stopped. The doors open and at that point in my head I was he's not gonna get on. I told him it was ok for him to get on and proceeded to help him on the bus. He stopped(I waited for him to say he didn't want to go) he turned to me and asked me would I be here waiting for him when he got back? Of course! He got on the bus. I couldn't believe it. I was so proud and at the same time sad because at that moment I realized that my lil guy was truly growing up.
We were both excited to see each other when he returned. I'm proud of both of my lil men. They are both on their own and are doing great. Now if I can just get into a normal routine that's just for me during the time that they are gone in the morning.
Now as for my 5 year old, well he had his front teeth pulled. He was a trooper in the chair but once he started coming back to normal he was a little crazy. He had his teeth pulled the day before school started and we thought he wouldn't be ready but he was. His first day of Kindergarten and he was ready. Instead of putting him on the bus I drove him the first two days. He loved it. Before he started school I asked him did he want me to drive him or take the bus or did he want me to drive him a few days and he could take the bus the other days. Of course he said he wanted me to drive him all the days. This past Sunday I asked him would he like to take the bus and he surprised me by saying yes. Monday morning we got up went through our morning routine and we headed to the bus stop.
When we were walking to the bus stop he was so focused that he didn't notice that his dad drove by. Every bus that passed by he thought they forgot him. I let him know that it wasn't his bus. Now my son is the type to say he wants to do something and when the time comes he changes his mind. Not on Monday. The bus came down the hill and stopped. The doors open and at that point in my head I was he's not gonna get on. I told him it was ok for him to get on and proceeded to help him on the bus. He stopped(I waited for him to say he didn't want to go) he turned to me and asked me would I be here waiting for him when he got back? Of course! He got on the bus. I couldn't believe it. I was so proud and at the same time sad because at that moment I realized that my lil guy was truly growing up.
We were both excited to see each other when he returned. I'm proud of both of my lil men. They are both on their own and are doing great. Now if I can just get into a normal routine that's just for me during the time that they are gone in the morning.
Believing In Self
When I first said that I wanted to be a writer, I had no one to guide me in the right direction. I dove in head first without knowing a single thing. I always thought, you submit to a publisher and they either said yes or no. I never knew that writers were represented by agents and publishing is not as easy as I thought. With many years of educating myself on the publishing and writing industry, I am now a published author. :^) What a feeling just to say that I followed my dreams and look where it led me!
With following my dream, I have now put myself in a position where struggling writers want to know how I got started, what path did I take and/or how I kept going with having doors shut in my face sort of speak and hearing the word no. I simply tell them that writing is something that I want to do. Writing wasn't forced on me, it is my passion and when I write, I'm extremely happy inside and out. Being that writing was my passion and a career I wanted to pursue, I simply followed through.
Many of us get caught up with what we are "supposed" to do but never get caught up with our dreams and goals. It's often because there isn't anyone there to help us or push us to follow through. I can admit that it is also hard just to start some where but in all actuality it's very simple.
We all hear of success stories of people starting new businesses or a new career and we are amazed. We think to ourselves, how can I accomplish something to that extent or even something simple?
Here's how, you have to believe that you can do it. You have to believe that you will succeed. For every negative thought you have, turn into a positive thought. I know that it very simple to do but sometimes it's not that simple. People need motivation and that's understandable but if you don't believe in yourself, how can you expect for someone else to believe in you.
With following my dream, I have now put myself in a position where struggling writers want to know how I got started, what path did I take and/or how I kept going with having doors shut in my face sort of speak and hearing the word no. I simply tell them that writing is something that I want to do. Writing wasn't forced on me, it is my passion and when I write, I'm extremely happy inside and out. Being that writing was my passion and a career I wanted to pursue, I simply followed through.
Many of us get caught up with what we are "supposed" to do but never get caught up with our dreams and goals. It's often because there isn't anyone there to help us or push us to follow through. I can admit that it is also hard just to start some where but in all actuality it's very simple.
We all hear of success stories of people starting new businesses or a new career and we are amazed. We think to ourselves, how can I accomplish something to that extent or even something simple?
Here's how, you have to believe that you can do it. You have to believe that you will succeed. For every negative thought you have, turn into a positive thought. I know that it very simple to do but sometimes it's not that simple. People need motivation and that's understandable but if you don't believe in yourself, how can you expect for someone else to believe in you.
Tuesday
Friends
My mom always used to say: "(you fill in the name) isn't really your friend or who you think is your friend isn't." I'd always roll my eyes and walk away. Back then, I never really understood what she meant but as I got older I began to see what she meant.
I always considered myself a good friend. If you confided in me, that's exactly what you were doing. If you told me you were friends with someone and I knew that someone was talking shit about you...I'm gonna tell you.(You wonder why your business is in the streets well.....) If I heard something on the streets about you.....I'm coming to you about it. I sometimes find myself around people who talk about other people behind their back.(technically isn't that in your face, so shouldn't it behind your face?) Mind you, they call these people their friends. In my mind I'm like wow and you call yourself a friend?
The older I get and go through things in life, I see who is and who isn't a friend. I'm almost in my mid-thirties and as I entered into my thirties, I've learned who's real and who isn't. It's funny because the people that I've met along the way have been better friends to me than those who I've known longer. Wow, as I typed that, I shook my head and said that was a damn shame.
It's funny because now that I'm older I understand what my mother meant back then. And believe it or not, the ones she called out are the ones who I don't speak to. I guess when we're young we are blind but then later in life we really begin to see who our real friends are.
I always considered myself a good friend. If you confided in me, that's exactly what you were doing. If you told me you were friends with someone and I knew that someone was talking shit about you...I'm gonna tell you.(You wonder why your business is in the streets well.....) If I heard something on the streets about you.....I'm coming to you about it. I sometimes find myself around people who talk about other people behind their back.(technically isn't that in your face, so shouldn't it behind your face?) Mind you, they call these people their friends. In my mind I'm like wow and you call yourself a friend?
The older I get and go through things in life, I see who is and who isn't a friend. I'm almost in my mid-thirties and as I entered into my thirties, I've learned who's real and who isn't. It's funny because the people that I've met along the way have been better friends to me than those who I've known longer. Wow, as I typed that, I shook my head and said that was a damn shame.
It's funny because now that I'm older I understand what my mother meant back then. And believe it or not, the ones she called out are the ones who I don't speak to. I guess when we're young we are blind but then later in life we really begin to see who our real friends are.
Monday
My Life
If you told me, oh lets say 17yrs ago my life would be like this,
I wouldn't have believed you.
If you would have told me that I would be a mother of two, I wouldn't
have taken you serious.
If you would have told me I'd be a published author, I would
have let out a big HA in your face.
If you would have told me that the lessons I was going to learn,
I would have said, whatever, rolled my eyes and walked away.
If you would have told me about the old and new friends, I would have said, "wow, really!"
If you would have told me all these things 17yrs ago about my life, I truly wouldn't have believed you.
I wouldn't have believed you.
If you would have told me that I would be a mother of two, I wouldn't
have taken you serious.
If you would have told me I'd be a published author, I would
have let out a big HA in your face.
If you would have told me that the lessons I was going to learn,
I would have said, whatever, rolled my eyes and walked away.
If you would have told me about the old and new friends, I would have said, "wow, really!"
If you would have told me all these things 17yrs ago about my life, I truly wouldn't have believed you.
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